doctor Harris

Abang, jangan lupa adik kat sini. Whatever happens, carilah adik nanti. Adik ada kat sini. Tetap kat sini. Andailah ... masa adik dah sampai, adik nak abang ziarah adik nanti. Boleh kan abang? 

Malam 2 Januari, 2015

Abang please abang, not tonight.

I have to talk to him. 

Aku grab phone. Terus masuk bilik. Kunci rapat rapat.

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Ultraman. Gelaran aku untuk diri sendiri. Sebab suka sangat tengok ultraman lawan raksasa kat astro ceria. Aku nak jadi cool macam ultraman (impian masa belum mumayyiz) Abang Harris panggil aku ultraman. Sejak kenal. Sampai sekarang.

Ultraman : ABANG LAST KE HARINI WHY ABANG WHY :'-(

Abang Harris : haah..sbb dh mls nk gne acc ni actually..nothing here for me..my precious time is waiting for me..I don't want to waste my time here anymore..

Ultraman : You're right tbh. Nothing's here. We only made friends with strangers like u and me. Sharing stories. Happiness. Sadness. Experiences. Who's that lucky princess? Eleleleh

Abang Harris : Yeah couldn't agree more.. I can't stop myself from looking back to my past.. So I decided to be with the person in my past after all..

Ultraman : I'm sad tbh. I'm really upset. But it's your future isnt it? I dont have right to stop you. Do whatever you wanna do. Dont you forget us here.. 

Abang Harris : okay..no, I'm not going to forget u all.. Selamat maju jaya.. 

Ultraman : Goodbye. I admit it. You're the most awesome brother/senior that i've ever had (tipu je) Although we're not close. May Allah bless and ease your way ahead. Luaskan jalan dakwah abang. All the best doctor! This useless ultraman and ash (friend of Abang Harris) will miss you. She's the luckiest person in the world :')

Abang Harris : Mte msuk habuk plk..sjk bile pancake ni kluarkan habuk.. Hahaha..ultraman, you're the cutest ultraman ever :D may Allah ease you too..inshaaAllah, one day abg akan jadi ala2 bdk tomato.. Cme bezanya abg bdk tomyam lah...hahaha I hope she feel on that way like you do..

Ultraman : Forgive all my sins to you. All my bad words. Janji lepasni tknk tendang abg dah. I love to make jokes bcause i dont want someone that i loved being sad all the time. Its okay if u want to cry cause i've cried a little haha. I dont mind if u wanna call me adik or whatever.

Abang Harris : Alololololo.. Touched girl.. Sumpah touched hakhak..mcmlah abg tk biasa dgn tndangan kamu..bak kata pepatah, alah bisa tegal biasa haha

Ultraman : I'm being so emo tonight haha *wiping tears* Do pray for me abang. Do pray for this future surgeon. I wanna be like you. A successful person. Just like you. Goodbye ;))

Abang Harris : ultraman pn nangis? Ni msti lampu dkt dada tu dh brkelip2 kan that's why lembik haha... Girl, I wish the best for you ;)

Conversation ended dengan kedua dua eyebag aku membengkak dan hidung merah.

Wherever you are right now, you have to know that i love you. So much. I hope you'll be here soon. One fine day. On that day. Take care of yourself, abang. I'll be your ultraman. Always be. And forever.